it’s been a rough fucking quarter, but you’re almost finished. i’m so proud of you. you came back to school not really sure what you were getting yourself into. you were so excited to finally be back that you might have bitten off a little bit more than you could chew.
you met a lot of people, even though you were a little anxious and worried deep down about whether any of this was still worth doing. it’s okay.
as one of your good friends told you, friendships, relationships (and all those other ships) are worth pursuing — even if you only have a year left in this wonderful city — because they’re what make life meaningful and make the memorable experiences that you’ll ultimately look back to in the future.
so what if two relationships didn’t go the way you wanted them to? it’s okay. it’s happened before and it’ll probably happen again in the future (for pure experience purposes, i sure hope it does).
ever since you first started getting romantically involved with people, it’s been one experience after another, where you tried molding your life around someone else’s. that’s not how this game works, unfortunately.
i know it’s only been a couple days since he left, but don’t get too down about it. of course, feeling crummy and emotional about it is totally valid. just take the time needed to decompress and focus on yourself.
it’s one of those rare moments you haven’t experienced in a while, where you can just relax and not focus on anyone else but yourself.
and knowing you, you’re such a compassionate and type-a kind of person, that it’s almost insulting to tell you to focus on yourself.
but trust me, you need it.
this isn’t even in a bullshit “fuck everyone, you deserve it” kind of cliche pep talk.
take a while to just savor waking up, completely alone, uninhibited and ready to do whatever. you. want.
for the past couple of years, all you’ve been worried about is jumping from person to person, seeking validation and wholesomeness from someone else.
i think it finally took getting your heart broken for the 20 millionth time to realize that’s not a sustainable way to live.
here’s what you’re gonna start doing:
- dressing bolder, it makes you feel more confident
- exercising regularly, esp yoga. your body will thank you later
- spending a bit more money on good food. it takes so little to make you feel so good
i know that it’s difficult for you to just ~*~exist~*~, but maybe that’s what it’ll take for you to get out of this funk. your *go *go *go attitude isn’t having the best effects on yourself right now, so even if its wildly uncomfortable to go into things blindly and without tangible results right now, it’ll be okay.
just trust me.